My brother was brought in by ambulance to the same ER we brought Beckett to. When I heard, my DH asked me if I could go in there. My response, “This is not about me, I have to do it.”
I think often people get caught up in what happened in the past and lose focus as to why they are where they are in the present. Getting angry, upset and vocal about something that happened in a very different situation is useless. It is a waste of energy, energy that would be better directed at the current situation.
Of all that has happened to me, I have learned that there are more important things in life then being bitter and angry. Yes there are times that you need to feel what you are feeling, but to dwell on things gets you nowhere. I have learnt that I have limited energy stores and if I waste them on silly things, then I am just not going to be any help to anyone.
The ER was scary, but what was scarier was my brother’s medical condition. Things are looking up for him, he is now home and waiting on more tests. I am glad that I could push my feelings aside and be there for him.
Little pat on the back for me J
I hope your brother is going to be okay, and you deserve a pat on the back for being able to see through the pain that I am sure that place brings you and knowing that you were there for him. I am sure he appreciates it.
ReplyDeleteadding another pat on the back! a lot of wisdom in this post. hope your brother is well soon!
ReplyDeleteI had to also return to the hospital where my son died. I also felt that it had to be put aside so that I could be there for my cousin. There is definitely strength that comes with that walk. Patting you on the back as well.
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